Last June

My pulse rose

The crashing waterfall

I recall the tension 

Nature in tune

My fear and anxiety 

Slippery footing 

How I poured

Collided and drowned 

I am a Pufferfish

Eyes wide
Startled
Puffing my chest
Covered in spines

What if I never get over it?

I've tried to muffle her
With time and solitude
Distraction and sex
Dragging her along to
A whole new life

She still screams
Confused and hurt
Crying out for answers
Why I let her open
Why does she still bleed

Alarm

I felt myself frown against your kiss

Break away so I don't cry into your mouth

You stroke my hair and I shudder

A rigid back against your gentle touch

My body knows you but my head is lost

Each time your skin is on mine I reset

Go

Ready to take off this

Fake Smile

Untie and let go 

Of all the pent up

Bitterness

Take a deep breath

A final cry

Let go

Wavelength

Firecracker

I wonder if you make

Everyone

Feel so admired

Paranoia

Needles in my brain

Acupuncture of doubt

Pin pricks of

Everyone hates you