I think the latter

was my distance and hesitation
my downfall or
savior

Broken Spell

I let you into my realm
Opened up in your space
Made my magic accessible
Hands touched my sacred tools
Carved intentions into wax

Skin on skin
Wrapped in my arms
Lost in salt water and flame
Breath and bodies in sync

You drank in
My words
My tone
My energy
Swallowed me

Why would you do that to me

Did you really
let me lay in your arms
my head on your bare chest
while you read me poems
that you’d written for her?

New Moon

Waiting for your renewal
Clean slate
Wiping away the pain of the previous cycle
I need to clear these emotions
Ground
Release
I want to be ready for what's next
Planting new seeds
Resetting to again refill
Lost power
Drained cups
I'll always romanticize a fresh start
Your cooling darkness
Settles my overgrown fire
I will be waiting



- New Moon

Supporting Cast

I will not feel like a 

secondary character

in the story of my own life

I'm not part of your chorus

not the comic relief

and definitely fucking not 

her understudy

No Salt, Please

I knew the first day
In the moment we met
That you'd hold a special spot
I opened like a garden gate

You've pulled me from sorrow
Brought laughter when I felt hollow
Showed up for healing
So we can be drunk on laughter
And of course, margs

Pages

I tore them
Shred by shred
Each one ripped out of the binding
A memory of my recent past
Anxiety
Love
Jealousy
Fear
Lust
Ramblings of the nights when I felt
My roots might never meet the ground again

I tore them from their place
Pulled them out of me
Handed them to you
Trusting
Releasing
Tear-stained writings
Hidden thoughts

We joined hands to start that fire
Our energy built the flame
Burned it all away together
Crumpled
Folding
Wedged in to ignite
Watching as the pain turned to ashes

You held space for me
Those final pages
As I opened up the halls of
Vulnerability
Dashed hopes
Heavy tears
And your music, words, and silence were comfort

That night I felt so many things
But most of all
Protected
Connected
Magic
I am so lucky
To bathe in the light of your Love