Taking Space

I can breathe again
Out from under the weight
Your heavy head
Never ending stream of apologies

You keep me trapped in a cage
Frantically rattling
In my own head
Grasping for answers
Building rationalizations
Searching for words
Over-explain enough to
Fix my feeling inadequate

I can flow now
Pouring energy into myself
Live at a distance
My arm's length protection

It would  be a lie
Denying this ache
How I long for closeness
You destroy every cell in me
I must choose flight
Leave my dense heart grounded
Aloft on hasty wings
Relishing impulse and freedom

Soaked

I melt like ice
Under your tongue

I've Run Out Words for You

I cut myself open
Spilled ink like sliced veins
Pooled at your feet
You walked through the puddle
Left a trail of footprints
Across my messy core
So I let the ink dry

I Can't Make Myself Get Up

Depression feels like
Flesh made of lead
Rolling over in bed
Feels like a marathon

It's a Little Scary Too

It's exhilaration
Butterflies in the stomach
Uneasiness
But in a good way

You challenge me
Like a game of chess
Or a waltz
Where I don't know all the steps
But I'll let the dance lead me
Music and flow

There's a comfort
Rhythm
But not like curling up
In my own bed

Like falling backwards to a
Giant, fluffy, feather pillow
Where you don't know
How far you'll sink

Sensitive

Delicate child
You used to be a summer breeze
Wildflowers in your hair
Cupping grasshoppers in your palms
Just for a closer look
Remember that water balloon fight?
You cradled your pink latex baby
Carried like a precious being
Spilled tears when she broke in your arms
How you danced to no music
Spinning in the hallways
Pure, shy, and sensitive
How do I coax you out again?
You've hidden for so long

Music

All these songs
About love and pain
Seem to be about
You