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Technology documented the butterflies

Beaming face and shining eyes

Disbelief that you were enchanted too

Excitement I had never known 

My scrolling dregs up how you touched me

I return to confused saddness

Melancholy that I thought I’d lost 

We are Not Friends.

You should've left me alone
That's what you said to me
I can't help but agree
All the chances to that
You had so many ways out
To let me have peace
A clean break from you
But you didn't, wouldn't
I kept tying threads to you
Tangled myself in knots
Split myself open in front of you
Exposed, raw, bleeding out
So maybe I am overbearing
I am too much
Too intense
A martyr no one asked for
The fucking fool
I replaced my self respect
With a toxic need for your
Approval?
Affection?
I don't even know what I wanted
You could never be that
Whatever it was
You made me doubt my worth
That's the biggest sin
I finally broke
Burned out
And truthfully?
We will never be
Okay

Sandpaper

Your presence
Rubs me like sandpaper
Every fiber of me
Wants to back away
Escape the grating
Let these scabs heal

Comfortable

I sink back into you
Like a well-worn sofa

How

I walk through this world
Back full of sagging arrows
Feeling the gouged wounds
Pricks all lodged in me

I want to be made of blossoms
Rose petals that swirl
Carried by the wind like music
Light and present in the moment

Opposed

I feel everything all at once
Emotions pouring out of every crack
Drowning in an overflowing cup

Or
I feel
Nothing
At all.

Water

I was a spring
A well
Cool clear water

Sea of amorous musing

Definitely an ocean
Whose salty depths are
Darkness
Pressure