My Ship

 I know the ocean is stormy

You feel lost at sea

Anchoring yourself impossible    

Thrown against the waves

Let me be your harbor

Let me be your shore

Thirsty

 I see you every day now

Heart still jumps out of my chest

Thumping 

Catching your glance

Can't keep my hands to myself

A magnet

I touch your skin

Fingers tracing and grabbing

I drink you in

Thirst never quenched

Nights you're not in my bed 

I don't want to be either

Hum

 Nonstop

The drive ongoing

Hum hum hum

Busy bee

Busy with nothing

Busy with worry

Why can't I rest

I lay around but never

Rest

Never still 

Where is the stillness

Contentment I knew

I can't stop the hum to let it

Settle

Make it stop

Make me stop

Absent minded droning on

Scrolling on

Snippets of songs on repeat

Short short short

Attention span and I am

Humming

Ever After

 The is no "ever after"

When we ride into the sunset

Our consciousness follows

Saddled up with us

Each sunrise recommitting

To our forever

Crybaby

 I cry almost every night

All of my pillows mascara stained

Some nights stress

The weight of the world or

How I struggle just to make it

Some night's that's all I am 

A faucet of tears with no words

No names for emotions

Tears flow when the sun goes down

Almost every night

Closed

 at a certain point

I shutter my windows 

protect my glass

from storms that aren’t mine

I’m sorry but 

this is how I survive 

Light My Fire

I‘ve been all 

smoke and embers 

since I’ve lost oxygen 

flame choked out

soaked with gallons

watery tears

bring the kindling

ignite me