Lesson

I guess the universe decided 
You’re a lesson I need to learn deeply
That’s why there’s no buffer
No warm body to cover 
The spot that’s gone cold 
Where the imprint of your shape lingers
Though there are nights of wailing in me
A funeral procession of mourners
Lamenting to somehow pacify 
My loss, your loss 
I pick up the shattered pieces 
Somehow shards remain 
Like my heart is made of shag carpeting 
Slivers of you invisibly tangled 
I understand your affection was smoke 
How you danced around my fingers
The embers cooled and that lovely ribbon 
Dissipated into the winds 
So I sit with this discomfort 
Trying to tamp down the wish
That you’d crawl back 
A fistful of apologies for each and every 
Single tear shed on your behalf