Thin

I won't bow to that image
I do not care how many times I lose because thinness is on a pedestal
The mark of beauty for the masses
I've seen this game since middle school
Abused myself because I never fit
I've built this strength on the back of obsession and guilt
Tears in a pile on my bedroom floor
Pulled myself up from self-hatred
Climbing and clawing away
I cannot let the demon drag me back into that darkness
Trying to shrink myself to an ideal
Cutting off my sanity for the sake of size
I lived too many years with nothing but inadequacy in my belly
Criticizing every inch of my body
How there were too many inches to begin with
Made it far enough to be here but I know absolutely
I won't survive doubting my worth